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Thursday I cut class to drive for two hours to see a friend of mine up the coast who’s been sick for a little while. At eighteen, she’s a couple of years younger than me. We go to uni together and so we tend to talk about and do uni related things when we hang out. There was something about the nearness of the ocean and the 100 or so kilometres of distance between us and the lecture theatre that we should have been sitting in that let us forget about it all. And so for a change we got to talking about other stuff. She’s recently seperated from her partner (not the most loyal or caring guy in the world). Coincidently, when I first met her she was also just out of a relationship and I was really taken by how much she’s grown in that time. She was being strong and independent. She told me she wants the kind of true, romantic love she’s read about and that she’s happy to wait for it. It’s funny that we’re naturally geared to want proper, pure love- even when the world is screaming all sorts of other ideas at us.
We went for a walk around the tip of the bay, where the trees grow right up to the ocean edge and there aren’t any tourists. She pointed out all of the islands we could see on the horizon and told me their names and a little bit of local history. I learned alot from her, there was a beauty in it, and there was a beauty in her.
I can’t really grasp it well enough to put into words.
But there is something good and wonderful in girls like Eb, with all they have inside, begin to understand that they’re worth more, and that whatever it is, it’s worth waiting for.
Praise God.
God did something really cool yesterday. After my whole calling in sick to work debacle, I asked Him to not come down on me too hard for my dishonesty and poor time management.
I hadn’t been sure if work were keen for me to come in Saturday it was established that I shouldn’t. So saturday I needed to phone in before the store opened to see if i were needed. But our home phone wont phone mobiles. My mobile was out of credit so I couldn’t phone from that. I borrowed Kirsten’s phone twice and tried to get through on that without any success. So I thought i should get ready just incase they did need me and also that i should buy some credit so I wan’t spongeing of K. So I’m at seven eleven and my debit card doesn’t work in their machine; I have to find an atm and withdraw money from it. I pay for the credit and then recharge my phone and it then runs out of battery. So I have to then find a pay phone. I do and my money jams in it and it wont let me place a call. So I find another pay phone a few kilometres up the road. I finally get through and I’m not needed.
I haven’t overexaggerated here, true story- the point of which is that God is good. He prodded me enough with all of those little annoying troubles to let me know that what I did wasn’t on, but ultimately He swung everything so that I would be okay. I wasn’t found out or hated or pressed for a medical certificate. And I’m not rostered on until friday so I don’t have to feign a limp or anything like that. He’s so just and right.
Alrighty,
Today is the third day of my fast. I’ve cut out all of the processed junk (save for the occasional piece of pita bread) and am eating vegetable and fruit based foods. Twice, I’ve broken my fast because I’ve had no time to prepare or not brought enough food for lunch .. so outside of a can of softdrink and a big carob-coated museli bar thing I’m going okay. I’ve had the most incredible throbbing headaches which I’m convinced are a result of my body’s addiction to caffiene and sugar. I had the can of softdrink at lunch today and noticed the headache has gone. I do feel a little lethargic but that probably has something to do with not getting enough sleep (work/uni assessment/volunteering commitments have been a little hectic but I’ve got the day to myself tomorrow after 11).
When I’m being completely honest with myself I know i haven’t been giving enough time to God. Without prayer, this is just a friggen diet. But i don’t want it to be that. I need to press in. I’ll give a good deal of time into reading my bible and prayer tonight/tommorrow.
It’s funny because the moment i get on my face and feel His presence I remember what an awesome God He is and how much I love Him and talking to Him. How do we forget?
I’ve got to look up; get a proper perspective on things.
